26th March arrives. A year ago exactly since you went back to Birmingham and never returned. As your mum nothing can describe how I feel today other than to say that part of me has died as well. I even got upset handing in your library books at the university today and left two young men there in serious need of alcohol. How you would have told me off for that. Went on to the Vale afterwards with dad,Liam and James to leave some flowers on the weeping willow tree. An expanse of daffodils out at the moment around the lake; absolutely beautiful. Made me feel that if heaven is like that then it cant be so bad. Celebrating your life tonight with a very large glass of wine and chocolate. The diet can start tomorrow. Love you my beautiful boy mum x